Fragile Heart Chapter 9 – Safe Me from The Bad

Chapter 9 – Safe Me from the Bad

“I lost hopes. As I came back to ‘him’, I have to face ‘his’ beating again. That was something I have to face everyday,” his face even paler.
I starred at him gently, and he took my eyes sadly, and sighed. Then slowly took his clothes off, showed me something I haven’t ready to see.
“This what ‘he’ did, Daniel.”
I gasped. Cian’s back was scarred with the Daniels of the belt he had received so often. It wasn’t that horrific, the scars in themselves were relatively minor. It was how he had received them.
“I remember each one it happened. What I’d done wrong. Sometimes I wished that morning never come. I want night all the time. Coz when morning come it another beating to face. But I know it won’t happen. I had to face ‘his’ beatings. Till I only could wish that I could sleep tide, even I never could! The pain from the beating made me couldn’t sleep. Even if I could sleep, it means the pain was too much to feel, and it would be twice when I woke up. “

Flashback
“CIAN!!!”
Cian woke instantly with the called. No matter how hurts his body, he had to answered it. He was like every moves was his last. He felt his body was trembling, and cold sweat over his back. He knew he got fever. But he couldn’t resist ‘his’ called.
Slowly he got down in trembling.
‘He’ had waited him, with a flat eyes.
“Come here.”
Cian stood where he stand
“Get your arse here!” ‘he’ grabbed Cian’s hair closer with full hand.
‘He’ gave a few hard slaps crossed Cian face with another hand, till Cian feel the blood on his lips.

As ‘he’ satisfied, ‘he’ released Cian’s hair, and gave him some pennies.
“Get me a beer.”
No need to be asked twice, Cian rushed to the door and go to nearest shop.
He came back as soon as he can, and gave the beer to ‘him’.
"Stand over there!" ‘he’ ordered, and start drinking.
Cian stepped back, and stood where he was pointed.
Cian waited with nervous. Soon ‘he’ got drunk, and the beating would begun again, and Cian didn’t dare to find a safe place. His body was burning. Cold sweat was run down on his back, made the wound even stinging! He couldn’t stand any much longer, he could feel he would collapsed in any minutes, but he couldn’t go upstair to laid his body. Anytime ‘he’ would call him.
And the time was come.
“Get your arse here!”
Cian froze with the called.
With trembling and shaking leg, he get closer. He could smelled the beer from ‘him’.
“To the wall.”
Cian hold his breathe. Heavily he walked to the wall
“Hurry up!” ‘he’ pushed Cian. “Clothes off,” as ‘he’ unbuckled his belt.
Cian pulled his clothes off.
“Pants as well!”
Cian sighed, ‘Oh, God, it would be hurt so much! . He pulled down his pants, till no clothes left on his body, then he braced himself for the first beating with grabbing the wall.
Cian felt the first struck on his back. It was killing him. Then another and another over his back body. Cian really would passed out. His body now was covered with blood and sweat. As his legs and body gave up, he heard a shout and door was opened.
“CIAAN!!”
It was Nicky! Nicky thrown himself to him, and pulled ‘him’ away from Cian.
Next, Cian couldn’t remember as he passed out under Nicky’s body who protected him from ‘him’.


Once again Cian was trapped in a world of dark dreams, fear and pain. his back hurt, so sore and his whole body ached. Dark dreams held him captive, ‘him’ and the belt. He was trashing about. He would scream if he can. And again there’s a hand a sweet voice soothing him, sponging him and wrapped him. But Cian kept fighting. His back hurt so much and hell burned. He would even fight when they touched his back, bathed his wounds regulary. The voice ‘don’t let me hurt again’ was always stopped, never come out. ‘please…stop this pain!!’ It was a very long pain.
End Flashback

“I thought I was dead. I was! I saw me mam. She stood before me. Smiled at me. Like she was expecting me to come,” he smiled. “Well, I always hope she would come for me. Safe me from the beatings took me to the safeties place, so he couldn’t hurt me again.”
“I wanted her to come, and say that she loves me, and it wasn’t all my fault, that I don’t deserved this. But she never comes. So I believed I deserve it.”
“No you don’t, Ci, you don’t deserve it. It wasn’t your fault.”
He smiled. “I wished I could believe that.” He sighed. “I wanted to die, to stop this pain. I suffered enough. I had to much! I thought I was dead. I was glad as I saw my mam, and smiled at me. I thought she came for me, took me up with her. My time has come. But…no…, it’s not my time.”

Flash back
Cian slowly became aware of his surroundings. He was laid in a bed, not his bunk. And Nicky was there. Right in front of him, crying with glad,
“Hi, Ci,” then burst into him. “I thought I was lost you, Ci. I thought you are going to die,” he hugged him tighly, and kissed him.
Till he let Cian go, still crying. Cry for joy.
Cian just stared at him, and looked everyone around him
“Hallo, Cian, welcome back, son,” Mr. Sullivan greeted him warmly.
Cian was confused
“You got fever, Ci, unconscious for four days, you are scaring us,” Nicky was smiling. “You are at Mr. Sullivan’s house, Ci.”
Cian was still quite.
“Yes, they took care of you, they saved you.”
“Hallo, Cian,” Mrs. Sullivan’s sweet voice was right beside him, and took his hand gently, “Glad to have you back, love.”
Cian starred at her, ‘Thank you.’
End flashback

“I was close to death. But they saved me. Their loves made me hanging there. And they promised, they wouldn’t let anybody hurt me again. They want to take me with them as they planned to move to England. Nicky saw this as a chance to save me, to get me out from him. So he let them to take me, to have a better life.”
“But why Nicky is not going with you?”
“He doesn’t want it, and I don’t know why. He stayed with ‘him’.”
I sighed heavily. The pain was still there.
“Like I told you, Daniel, this wasn’t a pleasant story. That’s why it’s hard to me to tell to anybody.”
“I’m sorry, Ci, if this brought you back to the bad memories.”
He smiled, “I would live with those memories, Daniel. It wouldn’t go away.”
“It will Cian, They will go. I’ll help you.”
He smiled bitterly.
“I’m here, Ci. You have me now. I’ll help you to get you free from those nightmares.”
He smiled again.
I offered him a hug and he fell in my shoulder. I hugged him tightly, to let him now that I always there for him.
“Thank you, Daniel.”
I just nodded and keep hugging him. Till he finally sleep. It feel good to have him in my arms, knowing that I could comfort him. I sighed in relieved. He trusted me now. And the first thought that he was a whimpered, weak, chicken boy, it’s all wrong! He was the strongest boy I’d ever seen. I believed he would be much stronger everyday.

TBC